Mama Monday

Ah. I really don't like Mondays, especially after such an awesome weekend.

Us N's didn't do much of anything this weekend. B wasn't feeling good and it was cold this weekend. We did venture out on Saturday night to see some fireworks.

We had an uneventful Sunday. Laziness followed by Draw Something and movies. I made Mac n Cheese in the crock pot and made a batch of cupcakes for C's party next weekend.

I didn't do laundry, I didn't really clean.

It was a beautiful weekend for the first one of fall.

Mondays always make me sad because we have to get "back to the daily grind" and time spent together during the week is few and far between.

The only good thing about this morning is that C figured out how to drink from a straw.
Yay for small steps!!!!

Happy Monday!
-e

Thankful Thursdays

My husband says I’m a negative person.

Whateves….. I’m not negative, people are just annoying. …

But, in an effort to be less negative…for my husband…

I bring you: Thankful Thursdays

I’m thankful for B (my husband), C (my bebe), my job (which I don’t always like), my house and all my shoes.

I’m thankful for my fingers, so I can write my blogs.
I’m thankful for food, because I like to eat.
I’m thankful for trying Nutella….well (if you have not tried Nutella, you better go do it because it’s awesome sauce…or don’t because you’ll start hiding in rooms eating it with a spoon)

Most of all I’m thankful for my friends (you KNOW who you are) who don’t need constant reminders that I’m thinking of them.


What are you thankful for today?

Mama Mondays

Or Manic Mondays

or Man, I can't believe I still feel hung over from the party Saturday night Monday ...no? Well...


So Man, I can't believe I still feel hung over from the party Saturday night Monday.

Let's have a weekend wrap up:

My b-day party was on Saturday.

It.Was.Epic.

I appreciate all that came to help me...welcome (?) 30.

The evening was great. I had a great time. We closed down Oaks and I definitely paid for it on Sunday. Did my hangover suck? Yes. Was it worth it? Yes.

Good thing I only turn 30 once. I know there are pictures out there....post them...or maybe not.

I saw a video....I hope it never gets leaked ;-)


Next

Manic Monday

I still feel a bit...craptacular today. I'm extra tired. My tummy still doesn't feel 100%.

I'll get over it....is it 4:30pm yet? I'm ready for my jams.



Finally

Mama Monday


As I mentioned in my first post, I'm a mom. I'm going to assume most of my readers know about my son and his struggles. If not, you are more than welcome to read about him here.

In short, he was unexpectedly born with Spina Bifida and also has Hydrocephalus which is controlled by a programmable shunt.

He will be 11 months old on Wednesday and it has been a rollercoaster of learning, accepting, anger, surgeries, specialist appointments....It's a lot.

I don't think people understand how different our lives are comparing us to an average set of parents.

He was in and out of the hospital for the first two months of his life. I didn't get the average maternity leave...I was with him for three weeks before I went back to work. I had to get to know him in those three weeks and for most of that, I played his nurse. I had to give him dressing changes and administer antibiotics. Something a new mother SHOULDN'T have to do.

He had to go back to Chicago monthly for rechecks. In January he had his first shunt revision. He’s had MRI’s and bladder tests and ultrasounds.

In March he had to start wearing glasses. Yet another specialist to add to the ones we already have.

He has therapy every Tuesday.

He had his seventh surgery in August. He was 9 ½ months old.

He goes to see his specialists often.

I don’t think that people understand that this life we have.

It’s not free. We had back to back deductibles and out of pocket payments we had to meet. We have bills and bills and bills. Every time I turn around. We don’t qualify for state help.

We can’t afford to do things like we used to. We have to feed him too.

And he grows like a damn weed, so he’s got to have clothes to wear.

We’re busy. He keeps us busy.

We don’t intentionally not call people. We don’t intentionally not want to hang out with our friends. We do. Our time is just limited.

Being a mom is pretty hard stuff.

Being a mom to a special needs mom is 10x harder.

I just wish people could understand that.


-e

The start

Today, I am 30.

A new day. A new year. A new decade.

The last 10 years have flown by yet so much has happened.

Made new friends. Turned 21. Played softball. Met a boy. Got a new car. Moved out of my mom's. Bought a house. Got a dog. Got married. Got a new car. Got my billing and coding certificate. Got a dog. Got Pregnant. Had a baby.

That's a lot.

But yesterday, when I was still 29, I was feeling sad, anxious....unaccomplished.

I felt like 30 was the end of days for me. I couldn't do what I've become accustomed to. I can't shop in the juniors section anymore. I can't wear platform heels. I can't drink beer, and I can't eat cake when I want. I have to be responsible. I mean, I'm a mom now, so I can't have fun anymore. There was so much I should have done in the last 10 years and now it's too late.

Life.Is.Over.

Or is it?

I woke up at 5:30am today. Seriously? I can't get out of bed at 5:30am any other day, why am I up this early on my day off? *SIGH*

I checked my phone (my crackberry (blackberry) that is seriously on it's last leg...like a crack head that's been in the game for a minute...)and already had numerous FB birthday wishes...which made me feel good about the day.

I tried to go back to bed, but decided to get up and have a cup of coffee in silence.

It was glorious.

I only got about half way through when C woke up. I got him out of bed and he gave me a hug...a birthday hug? We'll call it that. We snuggled for a bit

and I got him a bottle, then let him play on the floor until he jacked his mouth on a toy which his mouth started to bleed because of course he hit right where he is getting a new tooth, so B got up helped me clean up C and then they both went back to bed for an hour or so...blah, blah, blah....

Now were eating pancakes, for the first time ever. :)

See this blog totally IS ramblings!!!!

Anyway....

This is where I'm going to tell that I want to have theme days. You know, structure.
Mama Mondays, Does it work Tuesday, Weight-loss Wednesdays, Thankful Thursdays, Fun Fridays, Random Saturdays, and Photo Sundays.

Now I can't guarantee I'll post every day. I can't guarantee I'll post every week. But I'll post.

And it's Tuesday.

Does it work? NO....ha ha ha...

I'm not going to do one today but for future Tuesdays, I'm going to try something I find on Pinterest, or a product of some sort and write a post about it.

I hope you all will enjoy my blog.

Laterz....(can I say that now that I'm 30? Wutevs.)

-E